K is for knowing. I know that I feel better when I am positive and when I am filled with love. Nothing else matters. And I know that God is love, so when I love, I am communing with our God and what could be better?
It is definitely not easy. I wasn't raised to depend on and love our God actively. We were passive Christians. We did x and y and we called ourselves Christians. Catholics, to be exact. Yet what did that mean to us? To me? Sadly, very little. It was just what was. Just like I was going to go to college when I got out of high school.
It's just something I was taught. I didn't think about it a lot. And when I got to college, I had no clue what I was doing or where I was going. I find that I am in that mindset presently about God and eternal life. I haven't really prepared much for this time in my life - retirement, in which I have lots of time to think.
What does it mean to give your life to Christ? I think it means far more than not missing Mass or not eating meat on Fridays - I think it means becoming one with God by loving ourselves and others. Those "rules" are nice, but a saint they do not make. At least in my book. And who is to say my book is right or wrong? Just thinking out loud here....