"At the moment you are completely satisfied." 1 Corinthians 4:8

You can imagine my surprise when I read the daily scripture from my phone app (Laudate) and this is the quote for today. Hum, and how does this apply to me? Those of you who know me well realize that I fluctuate in mini highs and mini lows and today and this week have been mostly those mini lows. And now I read that I am completely satisfied.....Upon looking at my life, I should be ashamed to be anything but upbeat, happy, and grateful! I have a wonderful home with loving children, a husband who has been by my side for more than 40 years and a wonderful opportunity to be retired, yet able to go out and counsel women and children - what in the world do I have to complain about or be sad about????

NOTHING

 

I should be on my knees thanking the Almighty for the gifts he has shared with me, but like most Americans, I want more. When I get what I pray for, I find that it is not really what I wanted - there is something else somewhere else that I crave now. But this is the time to stop that sort of thinking and time to be in the moment and enjoy what I have. So what if someone was disrespectful to me? I have ears to hear those words and a brain in which to file them away. I have legs that can carry me to others who will welcome my company and I can lounge in my beautiful and comfortable home. I can thank the Lord for my health so far and thank Him for giving me the opportunities to travel and be with long lost friends and new ones as well. And nothing can stop me. .. .Nothing. Not words or actions or slights however so small.

 

Those deep dark feelings that threaten to encapsulate my being and send me to a trail of tears no longer have a hold on me. They may have temporarily this week, but I am aware of their façade and will not let them own me.